So I guess that this will be random spewing of emotions and opinions mostly left unheard. I have a friend who is going to have brain surgery this week. I am a little nervous for him and I am praying that he will be o.k. I have been feeling this need to think more to the future today. I want to make sure that my family is well taken care of and that D and I have a place to rest our heads at the end of our lives. Money is not the answer to any of lives issues, relationship is. Real tangible relationship. The kind that has understanding at the lightest touch of the fingers when its time to finally leave church or the gentle squeeze of the hand as you share the emotions of that first ultra-sound. It's the tears spent at an altar as you wrestle out an issue with God and the moments you spend pleading for a change in the hearts of those you care the most for, or perhaps those you have the hardest time loving. Life is about the moments that you have with each of your children- when you have your daddy daughter dates or your daddy son adventures.
The moments when your 5 year old daughter sings crazy made up songs or when your children point out the craziness of something that you did. When you take your son to the bathroom in the dollar theater and you ask him not to touch anything and he gets as close to the pot as he can and wizzez all over the back wall. Or when you have to take your daughter with you and you are trying to protect her from seeing anything crazy- in the mens room of a dollar theater mind you- and she points out the filthiness of the whole thing. Life is about the kids hiding in plain sight when I walk in the door and scream surprise as soon as I get inside. Life is about the cuddling with your spouse when she has Mastitis and can't stop shivering because she is too cold under two or three sets of blankets (and you are sweating like a pig in August). Or the time you spend with your best friend in your underwear fishing in ankle deep water in the middle of Harlan Reservoir. Yeah lifes not about how much you can get or even how much you can accomplish, but really who you get to accomplish it with.
I have to say that I have been blessed to accomplish life with my best friend as my wife and with the best people in the world as my closest friends.